fcuk up. @ 8:21 PM
you wont be there waiting for me at the door when i reach homeyou wont be there lying on my leg when i turn on the television
you wont be there sitting beside me quietly whenever im sad and in my room
you wont be able to look me in the eye and come sit by me whenever i cry
you wont be there to bark at my sisters or family or maid whenever they come too close to me
you wont be there to beg me for food
you wont be there wake me up during the holiday mornings
you wont be there to jump about whenever i come back from a long walk
you wont be there to lick my face
you wont be there for me to bring you for a walk
im a horrible person.
you were out there. lying lifelessly on the ground and WHAT THE HELL WAS I DOING? having my effing dinner
i never cared.
i never bothered.
i SHUD HAVE CARED
i SHUD HAVE BOTHERED
i wan you back....
the tears keep flowing...
i need a hug...
